Step 1: Controlling your urge.

Front Row

I spend a lot of time with my eyes

Seeing what's in front of me

Why the light didn't shine

Answer the darknesses under me


Time to spend some time

Away what was known

See if I could regrow this

with the same seeds sown



What would it have looked like

If it had been allowed to starve

I can't imagine a grin

When life had been so hard.


Fortunate


Weighing the value of availability
Availing myself of opportunity
Legitimacy is controversy
the 'oh boy=meh w/e' equation is a function of time
The distance between coherent events is indeed slackening as time goes by
When I read that I knew that it was not a lie
I pity the machine who exists in the blink of an eye
that machine is us
Can this be built and rebuilt and is it natural
that this would happen anywhere
that we could conceive of a notion of everything
what small piece of the puzzle to assume
what grand entirety to loom
what ever happened to the peace of mind
for how many years have I tried to find
where have i been looking outside my view
i told them I wanted it in blue


I spend a lot of time with my eyes

Crying in the dark

Won't somebody please turn the light on

Is there nowhere a spark


Actually that's a lie

Unless you count from the beginning

Truth to tell I find

My memory is thinning


Attachment to attachment
even fades

Why I set out to start this
why I allowed it to unfold
There must've been good reasons
For all the shows that I've sold




I spend a lot of time with my ears

Listening to crickets

Imagining that they say

something that fits this

Happy 420

Patrick is says:
hey do you wanna play rock paper scissors over email?
Patrick is says:
you can say no...
Stephanie.... says:
sure...whatever...lol
Patrick is says:
ok so we both right click each others names and go to send an email
then type what you're picking
then we'll have a countdown to send and see who wins?
Patrick is says:
i'm all ready
i have mine picked out
Stephanie.... says:
right cLick on your name where
Patrick is says:
in the msn list
pick send other and then email
Patrick is says:
that opens the window
with my addy already listed
Stephanie.... says:
ok
Patrick is says:
you ready?
Stephanie.... says:
yup
Patrick is says:
i'll say 3 you say 2 and we both say 1 and hit send
Patrick is says:
3
Stephanie.... says:
2
Patrick is says:
1
Stephanie.... says:
1

[emails are sent - i send scissors]

Patrick is says:
oh boy!
Patrick is says:
i wonder if anyone's ever done this before?
[email arrives]
Stephanie.... says:
SHIT
Patrick is says:
oh snap i got ya!
Stephanie.... says:
you win
Patrick is says:
hehe
Stephanie.... says:
no i havent
Patrick is says:
i sure never have
Stephanie.... says:
you seriously just did this??
Patrick is says:
now for the first time ever
Stephanie.... says:
LOL

is not is

Matie "Would you believe me if I said I didn't need you?" says:
so random
Patrick is says:
oh mr sir
Patrick is says:
i regret to inform you
Patrick is says:
patrick has died
Patrick is says:
just now
Patrick is says:
talking on msn
Patrick is says:
he keeled over
Patrick is says:
his head on the keyboard
Patrick is says:
his nose against the n key
Patrick is says:
nnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn

Spanish word for incredible is?

Oh that Roger..

Put it out there

So carefully each step I tread
waiting for the abating of
we were wandering among shadows
until there was no light
I emerged from the fog like
what is this right?

Through a tunnel of my time to a door I put my hand on and the heat seared my flesh and yet I held on thinking surely anything this difficult to get must be worth the scorched flesh of my endurance.

Where have I been? To which places were we going.
Every color changing and yet immutable. How did you build this?

Wash it off.
Wash it all away.
You can't keep it here.
Only you can stay.

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"Vicariously I
live while the whole world dies" -- TOOL

I was happy to find "Third Eye" for my piespace

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We're into the claycourt season so I need everyone's help with something. I just want you to put a thought out there for Mr Federer. "Roger will win". Know it. Breathe it. Make it.

IO

Caught in my wake are the mistakes we make
Follow the decision and discover this precision
or lack thereof if it's the counsel to take
Opinionated collision is reality's opposition
It's a reflexive action that one cannot fake

So onward marching dancing and daring
Kindly offered thanks of course for the sharing
and when voice you strain but cannot hear
it's likely we grew bored and are no longer near

Do we house the eyes of God?

Is it God's intention that we should be able to perceive Satan in order to avoid him?
Can God have actually removed Satan from his sight if his Creation can perceive him, or disarmed of sight of Satan, are we expected to wield the power and know-how God is claimed to possess, when even that was not enough to abolish evil in existence?

"Beliefs are odd. There's a lot of Christians wearing crosses around their necks. You think when Jesus comes back he ever wants to see a fucking cross?"
--Bill Hicks