She'll never forget

that on our first date I stole a shopping cart from homeless people.

Inexperienced in inexperience

re-experience: Despite any and all effort to ensure that expectations I'm forming of a particular female are legitimate, not created merely out of my desire, I always end up disappointed. I'm not up to the task.

In a new experience, I find the same familiar stages and ask, "What new part may I play in this? How may I escape my familiar role and yet achieve what I want? How am I best suited to being perpetually alone in the company I desire of others? How best may I preserve my solitude and give myself wholly to every person I choose in whatever context I'm present in?" Something tells this Patrick I arrived in time.




Reason




I've chosen Reason as my bride. She'll share me, but she'll also boot you the fuck out of bed if you lack her.

Would time...

maybe i'm better now
and maybe that's worse
maybe an ambulance
maybe a hearse

Call me a healer
in my mind love crept
ill afford may i
to be upwards swept

nonetheless without power
helpless feeble insane
why start your every bath
by opening the drain

Maybe it never happened?

Aftershock

You know, I've kinda come to the realisation that love is not for me. I've done my best. I've been as patient as I could for months and months and my reward was that I was called demanding. Don't ever be demanding people!! And by demanding, I mean, don't ever try to hold a woman accountable for what her mouth is doing. The mouths of woman are autonomous entities bound to noone, not even the women they're attached to.

Yeah love is not for me. This is what it does. It makes me bitter. It makes me blind. I will not have it. I must seek another passionate pursuit for the rest of my life, and maybe just fuck a few loveless housewives along the way :D

Don't Believe Her

when she says she needs you
it's just a lie
that you've heard before

You'll find something
so concrete as need
turns to greed awfully fast

don't believe her
when she says she loves you
she's in love with a hole
that she can't fill

You'll find something
so passionate as love
runs thin all too fast

don't believe her
when she says she'll call
there's too much laundry and too much shopping
dare to hope and ye shall fall

expect the snake's bite
instead of lost kisses
when you ask after
forgotten promises

How Precious Is Water

How precious is water
When glued by mouth
to mouth
am i

always knew

"So many people live within unhappy circumstances and yet will not take the initiative to change their situation because they are conditioned to a life of security, conformity, and conservation, all of which may appear to give one peace of mind, but in reality nothing is more damaging to the adventurous spirit with a man than a secure future. The very basic core of a man’s living spirit is his passion for adventure. The joy of life comes from our encounters with new experiences, and hence there is no greater joy than to have an endlessly changing horizon, for each day to have a new and different sun." - Into the Wild

Wow Roger

US OPEN 2007: ROUND OF 16

The way Federer made it 40-30 before he took the 2nd set a point later made me yell in my home.


Then just now, Fed goes down love forty. Lopez thinks he's gonna break in the first game of the 3rd set but then Fed turns it around in short order with a hold of serve. This relative blogger second, Lopez is down 15-40 in the 2nd game of the 3rd set. Fuck i love tennis. I love Roger. He just broke Lopez. It's the fuckin Fed express!!

Got what you paid for

"A hard beginning makes a good ending."
--John Heywood.