Inexperienced in inexperience

re-experience: Despite any and all effort to ensure that expectations I'm forming of a particular female are legitimate, not created merely out of my desire, I always end up disappointed. I'm not up to the task.

In a new experience, I find the same familiar stages and ask, "What new part may I play in this? How may I escape my familiar role and yet achieve what I want? How am I best suited to being perpetually alone in the company I desire of others? How best may I preserve my solitude and give myself wholly to every person I choose in whatever context I'm present in?" Something tells this Patrick I arrived in time.




Reason




I've chosen Reason as my bride. She'll share me, but she'll also boot you the fuck out of bed if you lack her.

Aftershock

You know, I've kinda come to the realisation that love is not for me. I've done my best. I've been as patient as I could for months and months and my reward was that I was called demanding. Don't ever be demanding people!! And by demanding, I mean, don't ever try to hold a woman accountable for what her mouth is doing. The mouths of woman are autonomous entities bound to noone, not even the women they're attached to.

Yeah love is not for me. This is what it does. It makes me bitter. It makes me blind. I will not have it. I must seek another passionate pursuit for the rest of my life, and maybe just fuck a few loveless housewives along the way :D